Seeking Help for PMDD

I am dealing with PMDD already about 10 years and thats as far as i looked, probably even more. But only about 4 years ago I also diagnosed myself with PMDD. Cause I was looking for answers I was researching myself why is this happening to me, and most important WHAT is it. I am by nature a happy person and very strong having PMDD hit me gets me out of control. ANd i like to be in control, so it even harder. I have been with my fiance for 5 years now. after 1st year of dating i diagnosed myself with PMDD. We were so good together like soulmates, plus we were best friends before we started dating.....but then my PMDD started to ruin it. At that time i was still in some what denial that I can deal with it, I am strong, nothing can take over me. But here i am still 5 years later and im still dealing with it. AFter the 1st year I also went on YAz, cause i did some research, and i went to docs told him i have PMDD (he never heard of it) then i just asked to prescribe me YAz.....and oh my i felt like it worked instantly. BUT........the side effects started hitting me about 3 mo after use. Loss of hair and wight gain errrrrrrrr and i always had a decent figure. So that was a big downer on me. BUT since yaz improved my hormone level balanced my mental state and feeling of well being....i could care all that much about the side effects. I ignored it by default. but all other areas of my life, relationships, work, myself improved and felt like it was all just the way it needed to be. BUt the wight gain and hair loss worsen .....its started to become really scary that i would cry in the shower how much hair i would be losing and looking at y self in the mirror was a disgusting scene. Anyway sorry i went on too much about the effects. Back to you. Pretty much all that you're going thru and experiencing with ur gf while PMDD is rocking her is the same as for my fiance. One min i want him to be like this, the next i want him to be like that, the next i don't want him to say anything, the next i want to leave him, the next i critisize the heck out of him....He did the dame thing tho....would fight with me....only to make matters worse. but even if he didnt fight i would find something to say that quite hurtful. Its hell for him i know. Poor guy he never knows how to be around me what to say what to do, cause i'll crush it all. And then there is days when its just all sensitivity . that i can cry about anything and those days if he's little too sensetive -like more than me-- that would bother me too. Absolutely everything bothers me. The only thing I cant tell you as an advise is> I can see that you really love her and you guys would have an amazing relationship .....so dont give up unless you lose it as well and cant take it. which can be understanding....but just be there for her support her in any way that u can. But please always acknowlege when she has PMDD (but dont like say it -oh its ur PMDD or hormones kicking in again/or u getting ur period) i know that irritates me. But just go along with what she say but in a CALM way , dont lose control and fight with her, casue trust me at the end of the day she will thank you and appriciate you even more and be thankful that she has you. If she says like don't talk, or leave me alone....give her space ....but be on the lookout and check up on her and stuff. In the begining my fiance did all the wrong things unfortunate for both of us.....but whatever now.....now he is so much more compassionate and carring....the thing is though my friend....when PMDD is kicking in keep in mind that we all turn into total opposites of what we really are.... There are these evil thoughts running our minds....its scary really. So we arent ourselves at all. And believe me she cannot say to herself-just control it- or anything else.....cause there is nothing she can do unless seeking further help and so on. Which honestly i havent done yet either. So i was on Yaz for 3 years .....then i could take it anymore-all the wight gain and hair loss---------OH and plus--------NO SEX DRIVE .....except for like maybe twice a month right after my period ends or so as i can remember. So then I stopped yaz June2010 and since i've been trying to find natural remedies and been taking few, but YAZ was still in my system until JUL2011. WOW! so until then things were still ok, somewhat manageable, but now the bitch is back in full, today id didnt even go to work because I cannot stand it, I cannot cope with the stress, My job i collections at a call center so go figure----I cant talk to people---are you kidding me....and on those days its really really tough......few times i left work in tears....i call in sick on days when PMDD is really bad...like today OMG. So i wanted to search if medical leave can be approved due to PMDD. So thats what i was doing and then came across your post. Well, i hope this helped lil bit.... ask me anything you can think of.... I am all over the place as im sure its visible anywayhttp://www.mdjunction.com/forums/pre-menstrual-syndrome-discussions/general-support/Itemid=217/func=post/do=reply/replyto=3266785